on growing up

You may (or may not) have noticed that I haven't been doing much updating around here lately. I usually reserve this space as an outlet to unload all of my silly ramblings about shoes and lipstick colors but the river of inspiration has been running pretty dry these days. As a college senior trying to figure out and navigate her next steps, writing my personal opinion about the oxblood trend (I dig it)

is the last thing on my mind.

This is a very unique phase of my life. A time when I'm standing between the college years and the real world. You know, eating leftover macaroni and cheese while rewriting my resume and researching job opportunities. I feel ready to move on from the college years but not yet prepared for this next phase which is quickly approaching. And it seems that every time someone asks what I'm doing post graduation I become less and less sure of the answer.

One by one the tide of life is moving friends all across the country to take job opportunities and chase dreams. People are getting engaged (one of my friends literally texted me as I was writing this post saying she's engaged- congrats Emily!) and looking for houses, and more than anything I want to sit on the swings at my elementary school and have all the changes around me fizzle down for a moment. But just for a moment. As shaky as I may feel, I've got something much stronger and more stable gently guiding me along a path that though I can't see, I trust to be good.

I look forward to seeing where the tide of life moves each one of my friends, and I look forward to seeing where it leads me.

"This is what I've come to believe about change: it's good, in the way that childbirth is good, and heartbreak is good, and failure is good. I've learned the hard way that change is one of God's greatest gifts, and most useful tools. Change can push us, pull us, rebuke us, and remake us. It can show us who we've become, in the worst ways, and also in the best ways. I've learned that it's not something to run away from, as though we could, and that in many cases, change is a function of God's graciousness, not life's cruelty."

-Shauna Niequist